I know this is ridiculous, but alas, it is still a THING and that THING is there. In my heart.
It seems like everyone is pregnant right now. Or just had a baby.
Paul and I had originally thought we would try about this time to have our second child. BD (Before deployment). And once we found out he was deploying, we were thinking we'd try during R&R.
I am very grateful that instead of R&R, my husband is coming home sooner. That is a totally acceptable.
However, when the Army plans changed, it moved our family plans back even further.
And now everyone is pregnant. I was in a room today with 5 pregnant women. FIVE. That is a lot of baby bumps. I feel like everyone is moving on but us in continuing their families.
Deployment for us is nearly half over. That's a pretty momentous step. Unfortunately, when I look ahead, it still seems SO LONG.
I need to look on the bright side.
I am going to get a TON of hand me down baby clothes!
I am keeping myself in business by buying adorable books for babies. {Side note, I bought a domain! Check out www.IsaacsBooks.com}
I am going to bank major babysitting hours for when I need them with a newborn.
I have an excuse to actually cook a nice meal and have someone other than me eat it.
While all these baby showers are fresh in my mind, if I have one for our second its going to be AH-mazing.
I get to enjoy holding sleeping babies but can defer diaper duty!
Only a few of my friends being able to drink wine with me means.... more wine for me!
And I am getting to sleep the whole night through. I remember very well from pregnancy and baby stage that sleep is not to be taken for granted.
Don't get me wrong, I am so grateful to have my baby. And I know it is frustrating when you want to grow your family but can't for geographical reasons. But....I sooo miss sleeping through the night! Just sayin.
ReplyDeleteI seriously need to fly to Texas to drink lots of wine with you.
ReplyDeleteMy sister just announced she's pregnant. With her BOYFRIEND of less than a year. And I'm still waiting for the time to be right to start my family, and I've been married for almost 3 years.
Trust me, I'm right there with you in this place. I'm trying to focus on all the goals and plans I'm working on for myself and my career, but it just feels so empty compared to wanting to be a mom. And all the babies and baby bumps and Facebook pregnancy announcements are not helping.
I promised myself that I wouldn't be jealous...I'm now finding myself in the same self-destructive boat with you! For different reasons than you, we are having conception problems, but I get it. If I see one more person get frustrated with a child, complain about BEING pregnant, or appear even slightly ungrateful about being a parent, I'm going to lose it! I'm even dreading going to OB/GYN appointments (which are EVERY month now) because I know I'll be in a waiting room with "miserably" pregnant women. Keep your chin up! We can do this!!! I enjoyed every single minute of my only pregnancy, and I intend to do that again when we are blessed enough to be pregnant again. Stay strong, Army wife - your son and husband are counting on you to be!
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